4/2/14

久违了，
忙
忙得没时间上来写
又恢复之前那种状态了。
灰尘堆得厚厚的
huh~~
干净！！ :P
好了，不玩了。

言归正传，
最近。。也就是今年=.=
接下了不少任务，

团拜
主席特遣，
让我也开心了好一下子
这是种肯定
肯定我的办事能力
这也是种信任
谢谢他们那么信任我
愿意让一个曾出现过很大问题的人类去担当如此重任

有时真让我怀疑
他们是不是真的看见了我的改变（我也不确定自己是否改变了）
还是只看到我好的那一面。。。



圆游会
当老师说有兴趣负责的人
找她报名，我去了
到后来班长选人
我知道机会来了
班上只有家荣和我要

拉票，乱乱讲的啦
我本来不想说的，
家荣说了几句，
意识到不说就没望了
就乱乱讲一句：我们要做全校赚最多钱的班

哈哈哈哈，没想到全班喝彩。。。

投票，谢谢
真的是很欣慰，
家荣，物理学会主席
单单这名义，办事能力就远远超越我了
我胜了，而且是大胜，38比1X
没想到大家愿意给我这个机会
让一个没任何“头衔”的人
担此任务
谢谢大家的肯定


学术学艺展
莫名地担上，
这可能就是我这5年来
期望、盼望、羡慕、梦寐以求的
机会 .... 吧
老是羡慕别人有着种种的机会，
如今机会来了



师生团
团长。。。哈哈哈哈
听天由命吧，
对手中，只有一个可能造成威胁，
只要打败他，
应该就ok了
别人问：你那么想中吗?
既然都选了，那么当然希望有个正面的结果啊~~

讲到这里，
我好像还没想我的竞选宣言><
开学就要了





....




新年，
感慨。。
今早才回来
开了fb
看了blog,
emo 了整个早上
别人的新年，总是那么的热闹，
那么的多人，
我的呢？
不知从哪年起
团圆饭，已没人再吃
上次已经是好久好久以前了，
大概。。。接近10年了吧。。。
真怀念那一年
。。。。
但是，
谢谢                                                                                                Thanks dear.... ♥ 
                                                                                                        wasted your money..



表哥要结婚了，
终于。。。


听了一些道理。。。
不要和别人吵架？
很简单，但很多人讲到做不到：
只要把自己看得不是很重要就行了，
每个人都认为自己很重要就会吵架

中肯
值得深思。。。
学下来！！！



婆婆家的床是不是有问题？
老是发些奇奇怪怪的梦
睡1小时都可以发个完整的短篇小说。。。。

1）（长话短说）
去上学的途中，过天桥
发现个死人（还不确定死了没）
（让我想起曾经的某个经历）
没理他，走到天桥的另一边，
封锁了，
然后被警察带去录口供，
then不知怎么的
变成了一场扑朔迷离的战斗。。。。=.=
战斗过程就不讲了，不然闷死很多人，而且我也不记得多少了

全程（睡觉时间）：1小时多。。。
lol


2）忘了很多细节。。因为是最早的
不知怎么的，
还想有个鬼魂。很凶，
但到最后，只要我死去，变成灵魂来做些东西（陪他etc.. 忘了）
他就不杀人了，
（而且好像我是个女的。。。好像。。。）
我就跟全部人道别。。。
整个气氛很平静，很祥和。。。
就像觉得我可以走了。。。
就在这时，
醒了 :P

声明一点：我没有自杀念头 =.=



3）
secret......
but a sweet dream ♥
like a story~~ ^^



that's all for today...




thanks for the awesome times every night
i really waiting that time everyday... longing for you voice




thanks dear ^^

12/1/14

好不容易，blog title 到了14。。。
12天了，
没上来过
难得有人想要看我的blog.... 一直吹打，
现在打了，
满意，苹果？

ok,
高三了，
从初一开始，就在想几时才会轮到我毕业leh??
6年eh...
没想到，走到这一步了，
5年过去得还算快

高三，
忙，累，难
以前的我，
每天不用做什么功课，
还可以整晚开着电脑

现在，
每晚的功课做完都已经很迟了，
而且还是永远不能在一天里完成所有以后要交的功课，
因为每天都有功课在加下来

当然，就算再多，
我总会留30分钟下来，也就是11：30
留给一个人
一个期盼着每晚来临的人
^^


...


去年年尾，
去学校开会
错综复杂中，被选为了6月学术学艺展名义上的副筹委主席，
我主要负责示范区
也就是校队“表演”的部分

开心，因为
我总希望能干番大事。。。机会来了
但我总觉得自己很坏。。。。
怎么坏。。懂的人就懂我在讲啥



....



这个星期可谓是“苦”尽“甘”来 ， 先“苦”后“甜”
因为，在不懂是星期一还是星期二的早晨，
我到新场去晨跑，
听到主席们说，
老师要我们自己做
不要跟体育处，体育学会
我顿时大失所望

告诉了他们情况后，
他们三个说
我们一起做^^

我当然是答应，
但。。。。。
不同了，就是不同了，
就算是找我去帮忙，也已经。。。。不同了
失去了一个
做大事的机会。。。

就如此
耿耿于怀了几天，
有时还一直告诉自己不能那么想
骂自己。。。。
我就是那么的奇怪，总是骂自己。。。


“甘甜”：
过了几天，主席们又跟我讲
联课处要我们跟体育处做
开心。。。。。？
我很坏。。。。。？

刘明华在昨天放学时叫住我：
维良，你星期六有田径练习吗？
如果没有，来华罗庚的训练，
试试看，能不能比，过后再看

他竟然实现了他去年对我许下的诺言
^^

感觉被重视。。。。太棒了 :)


...


看了你的blog....让我严重，严重，的自卑？
但是羡慕是一定的，
你绝对是个非常优秀的人，
老师推荐。。。一件从来，应该永远都不会发生在我身上的事
太多次了你。。。
自叹不如啊~~~ :| hahahaha
真的非常羡慕你这种人，
羡慕。。。。


独唱比赛，流行歌？
如果现在又举办，我铁定参加。
可惜。。。。

...


可能也就如别人所说
高三了，
最后一年了，
不要留下任何的遗憾
所以，
我做了几个决定：
1 加入康乐
2 竞选团委
3 领唱？
4 面试学领筹委^^ （两年前许下的愿望）（但凶多吉少的^^）
5。。。。 可能还有，但想不起来了。

总之，我会做出一些不符合我在一般人眼中的形象的事。

阿清集训时跟我说过：
明年破掉永辉的记录它，
青春不留白

lol 这句话出之于他口中有点奇怪。。。:P

可能，搞清楚了。。。那感觉可能不是渴望权力，

可能出至于羡慕，

羡慕能负责大活动的人。。。。

26/12/13

Story of the day:
Secret:
Wat is the secret I mean....
1220
A meaningful number..^^

A meaningful day^^

Actually why I just now didnt say much about the back journey of class trip

Becuz it link here

Everything start from huan song hui
When zheng jie say:
U r a great person
But u need to find a shoulder to lean...
Then so much ppl look towards me....
Hahahaha tht time I cant do anything..so just giv : lol wats happening de reaction
And the "5min" u did "tht" ^^ :$

Wat I said tht night is real de...
I hav did such "wrong" on you,
So I wont leave for whatever reason^^ really ... I make my promise tht night.... and now

All start from huan song hui I said
Cuz actually I wont "say" to u so fast de
I hav my plan ... maybe next year

But the question....
"Tht" question he ask
U know I need so much courage to walk out. .. cuz I know once I walk out,
All of the thing will out of my planning. .
But ay last I walk out also
But really... I should thanks zheng jie perhaps. ...

On the bus...
U ask me whether we still friend or not... im not dare to say... I know it was a chance... perhaps u purposely giv me chance de.... but Im not dare to say cuz It is out of my plan... I planned my words how to "say"... but cant say it on bus... so I say later
N u say fin camp cai settle

Actually I got no 把握 de
But I know I needto say it out le on 20...
And all my courage come from:
1 I promise to settle on tht day
2 I promise to tnf guy :队友!!!
3 ur gift
I read all the 103 reason
N also all those 悄悄话
then I know... I hav chance :$
So......^^

Not much, just these .... done for this post



That's all

Thx for thinking of me :$
Im here ...
I think of u also....^^

I love you ♥

26/12/13

before the story of  the day
a random story:
once u said tht u r sunny^^
i felt tht
cuz in training
remember tht day u saw me running in taman kaya?
u leave
then just right after u leave ...
in less than 5 min.. it rains
cuz the "sun" gone ^^


story of the day of 24th :
班旅
正如我所说：
i havent go out with class de ppl to a trip before..
this is the first time
and as i said before...it's for u

ok
first day:
our "drama" didnt show
cuz there is no two seat de place
i was forced to go sit back wif  zhi yang
i just plan to go sit wif u
but i dun dare to ask u...via msg
i just wanna wait till breakfast sin
but u msg me le
ok
i said...^^
(should i be a little bit more brave/initiative?)

ok finally i did ... i just didnt take my beg ,
i brought my purse, bottle n phone there...
whole day of happy^^
just a weird thing for tht time (cuz if now, not weird le)
i put my phone n purse in ur bag... the purse until next day cai take lol :P

the waterfall ( idk the name so i called it "the waterfall")
i picked few nice leaves
n those in your bag too =.=
until xue ling...
not as pretty as i thought
after it was dried n flattened

dun keep saying u r so 麻烦。
i remember ur FRIM story..
so i just lend u my hand at the waterfall there^^
i scare u cant come down...

finally we reach bottom safely ^^ (of course =.=)

taman negara:
tanjung piai
the view is good there
data roaming :P im at Indonesia region

pak zan took a special photo^^

the cute 导游ask
"who wan to be her dear".... LOL!!!!
then he...................... really.........................no word say.....
but we reach resort happily
karaoke for some times ,
then go dinner
yay same table wif u^^
after eat i bought a bubble  blowing thing

then back le
continue karaoke
n
we play games
i totally wanna make ppl laugh nia... did lots stupid thing like jumping around when i lose
like go blow bubbles at jeremy....
joker... :P

payphone: a song  tht make me scream until no sound.... sweet song... i like it ... except those rude words...(i prefer jayeslee version more)

ur special gift
i think i said
no matter u guess right or not
u would hav the prize
cuz i ady bring it.... eat ba le
happy? of course, ur fav food ma...

but la, really de
i saw newspaper these days
it says tht noodles got heavy metal inside
so
dun eat la
....er.....less eat ba at least.
cuz really nid take care of ur body ya^^


1 30 u say go sleep... but at last 2 le macam...
i nidda find a place to do ur incomplete gift
i dun wan ppl saw n ask
but seems like no place like tht for me... they r playing monopoly deal at the living room
so i just dun bother
i sat on the ground n use the table near tv there...
all i scare now just the dao you suddenly come out ..n ask.......><
sherling n meiting saw n asked.... tonny as well..

then they say they wanna go k room play..
n sleep inside there..
so i just follow
cuz no one is at outside tht time
n i prefer to be ask by them more than by the dao you...
finally jin yin ask.... no one there ask except her....lol maybe i was too fierce
i do, i do, i do,
then reach le the time i promised...i dun wan to break the promise so i just see...:
i only left  little bit bale wor (the bookmark... i did it from nothing till done on tht night)
so i decide to fin it
tht time ady 330 then i sleep... i think .. .tomorrow still hav time... just write thing nia...
the quality is not too good (bookmark)
far away from my imagination... sry

i set alarm on 6
when i awake, i was like ice block
all i have just a short sleeve jacket tht i wore tht night n a pack of stationaries...
sooooooo coooold
wake and go bath...
hot water is nice...
when i go into my room
lol there is a blanket left for me.... cuz i decide to sleep on a single mattress on the floor
ok i noob

the next day..^^
we go breakfast
wat breakfast le a?
o
we breakfast at downstairs...
after breakfast we go taman negara again....
tis time i walk wif u ^^
before we leave
u said : i wan take photo wif u... o :$
then we go back....to see 养鱼场（actually is 船）
ok back to ground
we go "shopping"
they bought the pig for chia nee
i bought the hand band
giv one to kai min as her belated birthday gift
i wore the blue one ... until now... training camp i also didnt take off

bath second time
cuz hot

u got thing to do...~~
after that we sing to gather OMY
^^

then lunch
we sat on same table again... sry jeremy...
the first time i help u collect money
actually i wanna do soomthing for the class de, like kang le gu... due to my 想干点事de心。。。。lol... im a lame ppl.

so thts why i help.....TT
im so 肤浅。
of course, can help u is happy la...
then we go "long gai"
u say hot then..... shadow
i say thirsty then ...... ^^

back
bath third time =.=
cuz i sweat
then we go ice cream

lol chia nee
keep belanja...

then bicycle...
sry im noob...
i really wanna fetch u de...
im NOOB

then we go dinner....
the "key matter"
i feel super nervous
thx dao you

i keep scolding myself
idk why i dun let myself make tis kind of mistake now.....

on the way back to resort....

can i pat your head?
你伸过来了 ^^

欢送会。。。
doesnt meant sooo much for me... cuz im not leaving
just hearing they say their gan yan...

actually when i heard zhen jie say wanna play zhen xin hua
from the  beginning
i ady noe he wanna ask that question....
.....
.....
i answer tht honestly...
....
...
:$

Then me n hao hao n zhengsi
keep giving tissue paper .... wanna make ppl cry
so bad we r...


later ....
5 min... become 2 hours... ♥
thx for telling me so much.....
the first time u ......^^
finally got chance.

u go sleep at 2 30 something
i start at 3 am
i go downstairs
cuz u say last nite there no lock
i write write n write...
finally
the fang zhu wake n clean up at six
n some customers wake 7 to eat breakfast....
some of them als ask me doing what...
i told them making gift....
n one ask me doing art?
i just smile
cuz idk how to explain... n i dun wan to

finally
wrote in sometimes sleep n sometimes wake de condition
overall i slept 15 min
cuz once i felt i was too tired le
i set alarm n sleep 10 min
then wake up cont
so energetic
but only last for 1 hour
then i slept for another 5 min
so my words is so messy...

last day... uk farm ....
just as normal as before... just go can guan...nothing special...
on the way back ...( bus)
super special...

thx^^

♥



done for today...
next preview : secret :P

23/12/13

story of the day,

学领：

一个在我心目中有着崇高地位的营

在集训里

我又碰到了

我曾告诉你我的梦想：

当筹委

but我真的很觉得我没那个可能

see, everyone in it is president or vice president

在16号之前

我几乎有种要放弃了的感觉

“明年不要去面试了”

1 我累了，

我被我自己的工作弄到我累了

2没信心

3忘了（打下打下忘了）

但是过了16号

尤其是到了19号

营员的那份心，凝聚力，态度，。。。。。。等等

又让我从新有回那份斗志

我也不知道为什么会这样

就。。。。我想要

我想要做些事情。。。就算会忙得透不过气

当年是我的无知，那种态度，

才会让我踏不上那条路。

我的问题，

所以坦白讲

每次听到“学领”

我都有点想离开

不想听下去

因为听下去，只会让我更遗憾

但，你讲，我每次都在听

因为你嘛。

你一开始的时候讲

我是有这种感觉

可听听下到最后，没有了，尤其是在班旅巴士上，早操^^

也是不懂为什么。。

16号，全部人（田径）都好像没看过那样，

坐在宿舍食堂

看学领

我回到房间，

房长：jiangze (jz) 问我

做么不去看的？

然后有点淫笑（他们懂了，那时）

我说：我不想看

jz: 是吗？（淫笑）

我：我不是那种一直"gap" 一直"gap" 的人来的。

i said this becuz: 

1 我真的不想看，

看了会让我想起那种遗憾

2 i really dun wan go there

first,

they will say i keep "gap" u

second,

they(xueling) will say u

i dun wan like tht

ok thts all for 16 opening 

学领期间，

我不敢过去跟你讲话，虽然我看到你很多次

因为如果我过去，

他们（双方）都会讲多多，尤其是你那里

那次在礼堂走廊，我遇到你也是一样。

所以只可以用眼神打个招呼。

就如有个晚上

老实说我有点特地

我看到他们在准备宵夜

我就试看看等你，刚好marcus他们又在讨论一些问题，

就这样

等到了^^

一个招呼

满足 :)

lastday 

i go xin lou just to prepare my game, cuz outside is raining

tht's all for xue ling

meeting today (actually is yesterday le ) :

不知道为什么回去开会

不懂要开什么，

只知道是去开会，

一开始老师（林淑贞老师）叫他们将学领的感想。。。lol im the only one who didnt go...

ok not the main point 

the main point:

筹备明年的95周年教育展（maybe like 学术学艺展）

推来推去

推到最后，总负责人，剩给我和另一个人，

老师问谁要做

他没出声

我当时想：

我真的自觉我忙不起这种大事

n

我很想做

但我知道

我觉得

我没那个能力

一旦发生事故

我没法去想象

cuz 我没经验

我知道

我一应该去学习

不过，不知道为什么

我不想

至少如果是在田径的话，我会去尝试

Ok my problem

but still im the 副“筹主” i “ ” cuz 其实没那么分明，只是个名义

lots of thing do le...

thts all for today ( tis post) 

next preview : class trip

22/12/13

Stor"ies" of the day:
Just back from a party
A girl's birthday party
Mum's 同事女儿的21岁生日派对
no la... actually just go eat buffet ba le
First time go indian de kenduri
Food nice^^

Low camera resolution cuz I zoom in so much

...


Today I just 肢解了my comp
My old comp
Tht one which is slow dao cant use le
Cuz mum wan tidy the room
So wanna throw away it le

power supply

Pentium 4 processor

Graphics card

Internet card

hard disk

mother board

Ddr1 ram

...


Last night I dream
I had a dream tht we all go ban lv again
But the place not same in my dream
Just a thing doesn't change:天涯海角
this word appear in my dream
I feel soooooo emo when we come back
Soooooooooo emo as I think I will feel so in the real one ban lv before I go
But I didnt feel it in the real one ban lv
Cuz I hav u all the way back to kl
I hav u beside me
Talk to me
Lean on me
Holding...... ♥
Thts why I didnt feel emo...tht much :p
It's lucky tht I hav u^^

...


Today is dong zhi
Thailand there might not hav tang yuan ba...
I hav left a bow for u ^^

Although I ate it ady :p. ..

Thts all for today

Tomorrow preview:

Xue ling

21/12/13

久违了blog
A whole month doesnt update
The dust is like 1cm thick le :p

Ok an story a day until 25 of dec.
To fulfil ur will^^

Story of the day:
集训
迟三天进营
当然得show出一些热诚来
认真地练习
but 到了第二天
笑不出了。
痛,脚痛
但没以前那么痛
cuz这次集训的课表算轻松了

13
small game.. just for fun
Killer game
I think de
Just let another ppl change a bit
But on tht day before the game
He brief me
I think dao got prob
I just think another plan to change the game
Just in 10min
I felt proud of myself^^

16
test game
I feel disappointed for my game
So much problem. ..
I feel like wanna give up
I know I wont but I just told you
I know u would comfort me n tell me dun giv up^^
Thts why I sms u

19
Big day
Change much plans
But the game still work fine
I sw them enjoy, at least my group is
(W8 I go bath sin.... mum is saying me now....)
(Ok just cut fingernails
Back to it)
I said things to my group when they end the game:
你们当中有人有我很欣赏的精神
很照顾组员,不肯落下任何一人
看到别人脚痛,你们会用走的
棒
当然后来有吵架
我不指名道姓,因为有几个都是酱。
但吵架一定会有
如果你们真的全程没吵架
那你们真的很厉害。


Later I told all of the player (cuz Im huodongzu im gonna end the game):
从这个游戏
不只是玩而已
我希望你们可以学到
如何沟通
你们是个团队
我觉得输赢不在于快慢
如果整个过程中你们没吵架
就算你们最慢回来,你们还是大赢家

I heard those senior clap for me
Im proud of myself tht I can say these kind of thing^^

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最棒的
再也没人说我很凶。不会接受别人的意见了
Just one or two
Maybe they not know me enuf...maybe

The only one tht say me fierce

Shimin wrote me de^^

And lastly marcus wrote de , I feel 被肯定